Couch potato

Its been a long time since my last post and once again I feel the need to pen down my thoughts and set in order the clutter in my restless mind.

First and foremost is my reincarnated relationship with my first love, Lyn, who i had a whirlwind romance with back in secondary school days. An enigma that has accompanied me along life's path even though we went our separate ways in college as my poor friend, zhen, can attest to, having been forced to listen to my wistful sorrows for 4 years. As serendipity would have it, things fell into place again when we met up again recently and the sparks were still there. Its something in her eyes, i swear it, that makes my heart flutter. Its been a fantastic few months except when i keep screwing up and being a lousy boyfriend recently. Sheesh, i have no excuses for myself, well, to be honest, i kept trying to defend myself initially but in the end, no excuse is good enough for being a bad bf. Note to all you guys out there. haha. Its been troubling me a lot that she isnt as happy as i want her to be and perchance it may be cause i am trying too hard to do the big stuff that i forget the small things that every relationship needs to sustain itself like the sms-es, backrubs ( mine are terrible so i shall skip that ), the little gestures like getting her a drink etc. Not to mention the terrible terrible date planning which has been rubbish so far on my part. Need to plan better dates. Dammit. Oh well, who said loving someone was suppose to be easy.

Work. Work. Damn WORK!! I am getting slightly bonkers cuz all my work is piling up. Its nonsense i tell you. I recently and finally passed on management of my overseas project to the capable hands of my juniors and i thought it would be time for a rest. But no, no bloody rest for the weary. Barely minutes after i relinquished the project, in toddles the other damn items on my personal checklist, my research project in NUH, my preparations for my finals and my new upcoming project with the Eye guys in TTSH. Darn it. Thank God i have lyn around to keep me sane as i plod thru all this. Kinda glad she is ard so that i can lavish my attention on something else other than work. Sigh, turning workaholic again. Not good stuff.

My life outside of work and relationship. NIL. Zilch. The culprit? Me and me. I been wanting to start some new stuff like hitting the beach more often on sat mornings when lyn is not ard but i keep running into barriers like my abovementioned research projects and the superglue on my bum attaching it to the couch. Sigh, where did my discipline go. Was thinking of resuming cable skiing but i heard a horror story of how a guy faceplanted himself in the water at east coast and came up with a jellyfish for a mask. No thanks. I prefer my sushi sliced in pieces and not that fresh.

Oh well, doing my pathology posting now and God its dry. Boring stuff but ultimately important. Sigh, as is most things. Take care all and wish me luck as i keep stumbling ard in my life.