downwiththeblues

Time slips by, quickly, inexorably

2007-09-06T22:34:00.000-07:00

Its been ages since i last posted on this blog. Months and months. So much has happened yet when i look back, i wonder what i have achieved in all that time that has come and gone.

My relationship is faltering on the brink of an abyss right now. Dramatisation aside, it has been a really hard time and all i pray for daily is for us to resolve our problems and get back to the important stuff: loving each day spent together and mourning time apart. Sigh ..

Wallowing in self pity has been a recent sport of mine. Not too good i know, its taken a while for me to slap myself out of my small-mindedness and realise that what i was doing was not helping anyone.

Friends have been great. I will always treasure each time they have patiently met up with me to hear me whining. sheesh .. so embarassed when i think back to how big an idiot i was.

Med school.. oh boy... all i am glad of is that as i approach my graduation date, i can safely say that my passion for medicine is real and not something i dreamt up in a fantasy. I enjoyed every single day of my internship and i must say that my patients saved my soul everyday. From the motivational speaker i met to the fireman with the quirky outlook on life, each and everyone of them gave me more fuel to face another day.

Last note, while all has been bad recently, i still know that i love her, no matter what my reservations are about our future. Not puppy love but real love. As real as my passion for medicine.

Feel the breeze caress your skin, the sun's rays innervating you and live well

Travel bug

2006-08-28T11:30:00.000-07:00

Was looking at my old photos earlier on and a deep hunger pang struck me. Not the kind of hunger pang that is satisfied by a trip to Macdonalds but rather a pang that can only be satisfied by trip to a place where they havent even heard of Macdonalds, much less seen one. Oh, i want to hit the road again with my sturdy shoes and my Millet strapped to my back.

Inadequacy.. a lightning bolt from the Heavens

2006-08-15T07:32:00.000-07:00

Its been an emotionally exhausting period recently for me as i went through multiple short postings in medicine. Seems like the work seems to pile higher and higher. But thats nothing really new, i guess. More draining is the way life swung from one extreme to the other in almost a split second, the quintessential dichotomy that occurs in my life all too frequently. Barely 2 weeks ago, i was feeling not too bad, like i knew my stuff or at least, knew enough to keep me happy and satisfied. Then over the past 2 days, it seemed like things deteriorated to the point that now i question the time and effort i have spent studying over the past 2 years. It seems that i am no closer to being the doctor that i want to be then when i first entered med school.

Lets see, a synopsis of events. First was the human patient simulator where i failed to pick up a condition that i thought i was intimately familiar with. Luckily it was only a simulator and not a real life on the line but i must admit that it was unnerving to watch the 'patient' desaturate and go into shock due to my inadequacy. If that wasnt enough, today i committed a cardinal sin in medicine, allowing my mind to freeze when i failed to intubate a patient properly. The patient had to go without air for nearly 2 mins as i fumbled. Then, i had to give it up and hand the procedure over to a doctor. To make matters worse, my mind froze after that i didnt know how to react. True, that was a difficult patient and all that but i had more faith in my abilities til now. guess i have to reevaluate things and make amends for myself. Oh well, time to sign off. Need to wallow a bit in self pity

life ... no life

2006-08-09T00:02:00.000-07:00

arrrhhh did i say in my headline that life is not about persevering but about enjoying?!dammnnn... dont think i enjoying now.haha its been really really busy. darn... anyways, sorry to all my pals who i promised to meet up with but keep pang-sehing them. k k gotta run, gonna get something nice for my girl before she flies off into the sunset .take care all

Hippo

2006-07-26T02:08:00.000-07:00

Horror of horrors, i have just found out that i am the heaviest person in my group. Ouch... there goes the last remnants of my shattered ego.haha speaking of weight, i gave in to my inner devil and wolfed down an oily chicken cutlet today for lunch. I just couldnt take it anymore... those succulent little bits of oily chicken, just begging to jump into my mouth. Sheesh, remember how i always write a post whenever i am stressed? yea, writing this cuz i am trying to delay going to the gym to run off the extra calories i put in today. sigh.

Had a good chat with zhen yesterday and she was groaning abt some rather unpleasant canine females ( to be polite ) in her office who push her around. Was interesting hearing her talk cuz i havent heard her say so many fu.. vulgarities in a long time.haha hope things get better for her. alrighty, i best be getting my fat ass to the gym. ende'

Couch potato

2006-07-25T10:03:00.000-07:00

Its been a long time since my last post and once again I feel the need to pen down my thoughts and set in order the clutter in my restless mind.

First and foremost is my reincarnated relationship with my first love, Lyn, who i had a whirlwind romance with back in secondary school days. An enigma that has accompanied me along life's path even though we went our separate ways in college as my poor friend, zhen, can attest to, having been forced to listen to my wistful sorrows for 4 years. As serendipity would have it, things fell into place again when we met up again recently and the sparks were still there. Its something in her eyes, i swear it, that makes my heart flutter. Its been a fantastic few months except when i keep screwing up and being a lousy boyfriend recently. Sheesh, i have no excuses for myself, well, to be honest, i kept trying to defend myself initially but in the end, no excuse is good enough for being a bad bf. Note to all you guys out there. haha. Its been troubling me a lot that she isnt as happy as i want her to be and perchance it may be cause i am trying too hard to do the big stuff that i forget the small things that every relationship needs to sustain itself like the sms-es, backrubs ( mine are terrible so i shall skip that ), the little gestures like getting her a drink etc. Not to mention the terrible terrible date planning which has been rubbish so far on my part. Need to plan better dates. Dammit. Oh well, who said loving someone was suppose to be easy.

Work. Work. Damn WORK!! I am getting slightly bonkers cuz all my work is piling up. Its nonsense i tell you. I recently and finally passed on management of my overseas project to the capable hands of my juniors and i thought it would be time for a rest. But no, no bloody rest for the weary. Barely minutes after i relinquished the project, in toddles the other damn items on my personal checklist, my research project in NUH, my preparations for my finals and my new upcoming project with the Eye guys in TTSH. Darn it. Thank God i have lyn around to keep me sane as i plod thru all this. Kinda glad she is ard so that i can lavish my attention on something else other than work. Sigh, turning workaholic again. Not good stuff.

My life outside of work and relationship. NIL. Zilch. The culprit? Me and me. I been wanting to start some new stuff like hitting the beach more often on sat mornings when lyn is not ard but i keep running into barriers like my abovementioned research projects and the superglue on my bum attaching it to the couch. Sigh, where did my discipline go. Was thinking of resuming cable skiing but i heard a horror story of how a guy faceplanted himself in the water at east coast and came up with a jellyfish for a mask. No thanks. I prefer my sushi sliced in pieces and not that fresh.

Oh well, doing my pathology posting now and God its dry. Boring stuff but ultimately important. Sigh, as is most things. Take care all and wish me luck as i keep stumbling ard in my life.

Workaholic

2006-05-12T21:41:00.000-07:00

I feel almost stifled by the madness that is work over the last few weeks. From the research project that i am doing to the overseas project that i am growing increasingly concerned about, all feel like a heavy log across my shoulders. Sheesh, its hard to juggle all this and still continue on with life. But the really sad thing is that i use to juggle more and still keep my sanity back in college days. Somehow along the way, i lost the ability to handle so much shit without buckling. Not that i am buckling now, oh no, i am hanging on but its just that its much harder to do that now compared to last time. Sigh, anyways , nothing much new is happening in my life. Started dating my first girlfriend again and its been fun. Oh well, thank God for the little things in life. Take care all

Hiatus

2006-04-28T06:56:00.000-07:00

Its been a while since i blogged. Lost the fire for a while when my life went into the shitter. But now that things are back on track, i guess i shall resume the diary of my life. Well, my life from the time i began blogging that is.

Currently attached to a liver surgeon now for a 4 week surgical elective. Its already the end of week 2 and i feel that i have learnt so much. Now the really weird thing is this. I see my tutor only about a few hours each day and i can count on my ten fingers the number of times i ask him questions. And he made it clear to me in the beginning that he wont teach me stuff unless i ask him a specific question. Its not that i have no questions to ask, i have plenty. But it seems that i have adopted a weird mentality, that i do not want to be heard asking dumb questions and embarassing myself. I use to be a lot less motivated to look things up on my own but i guess my interest in surgery leads me to find my own answers before i approach my tutor. And to that end, its been an enlightening experience. My learning may not be structured, but i can now safely say that i have released myself from the intense addiction to spoon feeding. Fantastic stuff.

On a less wonderful note, i am struggling with the administration to retrieve some information i need for my research paper. Its horrendous i tell u, getting transferred from person to person and getting the wrong advice all to my horror. Mind you, its not that they are not efficient, its just that they are efficient in giving you the wrong stuff. It just seems like they dont take the effort to try to understand what i need. Sheesh, either that, or i speak klingon and no one understands me. Sigh, anyways, back to hospital on monday to continue with my wrangling with the admin department, sheesh. Horrors of horrors.

Other than work, life has been getting back to normal. There are more smiles and laughter in my life, more often than not contributed by the hapless year 2 students who just began their clinical rotations and who look like lost sheep wandering around the wards. haha was in a resident room ( a place in a ward where doctors go to use computers ) and this bunch of dazed looking juniors wander in and sat down everywhere. Then, they began talking about where to go and which patient to talk to. Then one guy opens a book, then another and before u know it, all 8 of them are sitting in piles STUDYING after travelling all the way from home to get to a hospital to see patients. Weird i tell u, weird.

Neeways, gotta go. Time to go ponder over the latest email from the hospital IT department and to try to think how to get them to understand me. Or at least speak klingon.

Its over

2006-03-10T09:59:00.000-08:00

Bring it on!

2006-03-05T00:46:00.000-08:00

Its the last 24 hours before the first paper and woohoo adrenaline is pumping! feel so alive now. Yea, ok back to work. I think i am addicted to adrenaline.

And so it starts

2006-03-03T19:19:00.000-08:00

Finally, the event i have been waiting for. The rush of sweet adrenaline running thru my veins. haha, the funny thing about me is that i am at my best when put under stress, somehow adrenaline steadies my nerves, speeds up my mind and increases my state of awareness. Wonderful stuff, they should sell adrenaline pills. All the way now, two more days to exams

Lunch with a stranger

2006-03-03T07:04:00.000-08:00

Funny how life can be. One minute i am lost about how to move on with life. And the next, the path seems so clear. And an equally weird thing is that it all stemmed from a single lunch with a stranger.

Had lunch today with a stranger i met when cable skiing in east coast. And truth be told, it was a welcome respite to stop studying for a minute and just enjoy the company of another human being. The weird thing is that somehow, talking with someone who i barely know cleared up the mess that is me inside. We didnt even talk about my problems, just about heady stuff like protectionism in the USA and ecology. But i guess, getting ur mind off your mundane life for a while, even for an hour, somehow recharges you and lets your mind reboot and start afresh.

Well, bottom line is that i think i know where to move on from here. And truth be told, peace is upon me.

Thanks Nat btw for the nice comment! Great having pals like u.

Uncertainty

2006-03-02T08:03:00.000-08:00

I am confused. Slightly lost if truth must be told. But i hope that the way will be shown to me once again, as i have been shown so many times before.

New template for new beginning

2006-02-28T21:37:00.000-08:00

Whee, i like this new refreshing template. Its so bright and cheery. The same way i want my life to be from now on, bright and cheery. The funny thing about me is that for someone who has so much, I am not proportionally happy or happier. Seems like despite my optimistic outsider persona, i still am still somewhat a closet depressive.Treat with amitryptiline 20 mgs daily? or bupripion ? haha, antidepressant drugs. Just read about them. Dont like them though. They give you sexual dysfunction. Which on retrospect, would make a depressed person more depressed.haha

Well, the world seems like a rather boring place nowadays esp with the exams coming up and no concrete plans after the exams. But hey, i wanna finally sit down and do my mandarin and maybe make a few trips to batam to try out the waves there. Plus there is an extreme makeover session scheduled for me during the two weeks where i shall try my extreme best to lose that damn roll of adipose tissue around my hidden slim waistline.haha damn

Well i gotta go back to work again. A phrase that all my pals on msn know only too well. Have a good week all and remember to live

And life goes on

2006-02-21T20:09:00.000-08:00

It wasnt the sweet ending i envisioned. Kinda sad considering that the end came not because of one big argument, a huge measure of incompatibility but for the simple reason that the chemistry died and dragging it on would be just delaying the inevitable. But for what its worth, it was great when it was good.

A period of great emotional trauma is the best time to change your perceptions and beliefs in a lot of things. We learn that the best time to change a patient's lifelong smoking habit is just after he gets a minor stroke. And so, i have changed a lot of my beliefs about relationships and how to handle them. The biggest epiphany is that you cant plan it out. Anyone can write down a list of things that they want in their future partner, but when you do find a person like that, it may not work out. Well, thats my experience.

And so, life goes on, i shant spend all my time dwelling on the above weighty matter. I have a lot to keep me occupied, my exams, the poor children in Myanmar, my wonderful friends and most of all, the whole lot of chocolate i bought to keep me and me happy!haha

Study hard all ye future docs. Hold on til this exam ends and we shall ...... take a one week break and start studying for the next test. Life sucks

Life is not an exam

2006-02-08T07:25:00.000-08:00

Its been a real hectic week of sorts. Been cable skiing like mad cuz the promotion ends this sunday and i want to really enjoy it. So far its been pretty good, i do say that i am getting rather good on the easy-up which haha is actually more of a beginner's board but what the hell, i shall gloat anyway. With the wakeboard, i am in my element, the element of water. Keep face-planting and wiping out whenever i use the wakeboard and i have no idea whatsoever why that is happening.Sheesh. Oh and special mention, made some new pals, marcus and leanora. Funky people and hopefully future cable ski buddies.

Badminton. Just had a game today with the rest of the merry gang. Wasnt my best performance by far but its just the old age and long intervals between games getting to me. Was talking to Yet Yen and i was telling him how i lost my fighting spirit ever since sec school and he was commenting that he can see it in my game. I will deliver the points but if u ask me to fight, it takes me extra effort to will myself on. Yea, kinda sad. Hmm, maybe try and relive the spirit of competitiveness? i dunno, point to ponder.

Cooking. Sabri and Ling came over for dinner. They said my cooking is good. Period.

Fencing. Hmm, was talking to Wan Lin a few days ago and she got me the number of the club that she fences at. Will call them soon to sign up for the beginners course.haha yay, finally i get to fence. Been wanting to do this for ages.

Friends. Its been a rather busy week meeting up with old pals. Kinda sad that i dont take as many photos as i should. Will attempt to remedy that soon. Meeting up with chen chen tom for dinner and i need to remember to invite anin and cheesie over for food one day too. We been promising to cook together for a while but we keep postponing it. I will do it as soon as i get my new oven.haha roast meat galore

Sister. Everyone go pray for my sis otherwise i wont give u guys free mc next time. Her results coming out soon. Pray. Now. Eh and little pig, if you reading this, i am sure you will do great. And stop reading my blog. Its not nice to read about what your brother thinks and does. Just know that i am to be worshipped and its enough.haha k k take care little ms piggy.

All right, to the rest, sorry for not updating my blog more often but i am lazy. Oh and a side note, exams are a-coming and its time to hit the books again. I gotta stay away from home cuz its simply to damn comfortable. Will hit the lib more often, now that i got a new mummy to help me mug. yay.haha take care all

Highway season

2006-01-27T08:29:00.000-08:00

Its a new chinese year in 2 more days and i have been struck by another epiphany. Epiphany: Chinese New Year (CNY) is like travelling down a highway in Malaysia.

First there are the cars that suddenly all appear on the highway ( relatives you hardly see ). They shuffle about at high speed, trying to find a way to avoid the toll booths ( greedy little unmarried nephews,cousins, grandchildren etc ) who charge them an exhorbitant fee to pass ( ang pau ). Luckily for them, once they pass an individual toll booth once, they dont need to pass it again. Except for the really forgetful ones ( lost cars ) that keep going round and round forgetting which toll booth they have passed ( greedy unmarried nephews,cousins, grandchildren who dont mind collecting another ang pau from the same person ). These lost cars are really damn poor things. haha

having said that,i think i have the best set of relatives ever. Never had the above probs with them. Plus they all damn supportive. Ok ok, enough crap from me. Happy New Year all and go try that cable ski thing in ECP while its still cheap....wait...dont try now...wait til i have my fun first then u can go crowd the place.damn.

2006-01-21T04:19:00.001-08:00

Top of Zhongri-La, the highest point in our trek. Just 100m from where i later had diarrhea

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Me and Ah Boon again

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Taken at one of our lunch spots where we had our first snowball fight

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Taken along the trek

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TrekMate, the store where we rented our down jackets. Located in darjeeling

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The real deal..this is a classic old steam train. Apparently its overheating, which this guy is trying to correct

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Streets of Darjeeling

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Toy Train, a World Heritage. Wasnt a real steam train though. Mine was a diesel one

Back for a short interlude

2006-01-20T11:36:00.000-08:00

Sheesh, just when i thought life was going all peachy, it had to rear up and bite me in the ass. A new year has started, and i really wonder how different this year is going to be from the previous year. Or the year before that, or before that. True, i must admit, i am in that bad state called 'reflection' that generally leads to a worse state called 'depression'. Over the years, i realised that my life has become increasingly stagnating since i entered medicine. Another typical nerd syndrome, one may ask but i think not. I got fellow docs-to-be who are having a whale of a time. I guess its my own problem, that of stagnation and stubborn headed refusal to get my ass of my couch and plunge into the stuff i used to love to do.

Well, had a long chat with PMS-ing jayne over msn earlier and i realise that yeah, if i want this year to be different, got to really try to kick my own ass. So i start, will call zhen and leo and ask them if they want to go back to tanglin cc for taekwondo. I wonder if i will get back my old job as assistant instructor and hence pay no fees.haha cheapo.

Then i want to start trying to learn guitar for real. No more tinkering around playing tunes that i learnt 5 years ago. But new ones dammit. After that, was thinking of a seasport. Maybe get the damn cert for kayaking that they require nowadays for starters. Then move on to windsurfing if i can.

After that, i want to play more badminton,squash, hockey and floorball. Sports that i have heavily invested in, sports that i love and sports that i have been neglecting for a while. Cept when its 2 days before i leave for india and i realise that i have no gloves and i remember that my old badminton teammate has a boyfriend who has lots of cold weather gear. haha long story there.

Hmm, then there is this hip hop thing i want to get into. I had this lifelong dream of performing on stage and i did it in NJ. Talentime no less. Me and two other pals formed this ragtag group known as FLB and to be a bit ego, we were pretty good.haha we got our moves mainly from Ronne who was a master at dancing. Still have a scar under my chin from a backflip i did on the stage when i landed a bit too fast. But anyways, i thinking of starting hip hop. Yeah, definitely that.

But why this sudden surge of activity. i guess part of me is preparing for the inevitable moment when YZ leaves for europe. Gonna be quite lonely without her around. Sigh. The sad thing is that i know that she has to pursue her career but i never envisioned that she would have to do that overseas and not in singapore. Guess i met her at the wrong time. But we shall see what we shall see. Hopefully, things work out for the best.Keeping my fingers crossed.

Well, i gotta go. I have a meeting tomorrow in NUS for my project group. Gotta go early to start stapling stuff, God knows what for. Toodles

Sikkhim

2006-01-05T00:36:00.000-08:00

Just came back from Sikkhim, India on Monday and i was straightaway thrown into the hullabulloo that is school. Dang, i miss India. Well not all parts of it though. I must admit that i didnt really like wandering out into the wilderness in the middle of the night, my breath fogging in the minus 5'C temperature to look for a quiet place to take a dump and freezing my ass off in the process. And i certainly dont miss the vegetarian diet ( steamed brinjals ..eeww) i had on the trek.

On the other hand, i miss the fresh air, long sleeping hours ( 7pm - 7 am ) and the exercise ( walking 6 hours up and down mountains a day ). To be honest, the views werent all that great compared to what i saw in Nepal but it was still good. And i had a white xmas! wonderful stuff.

Hmm, i beginning to lose the blogging bug largely due to the fact that i dont feel so angsty no more nowadays which is a good thing. So from now onwards, i shall strive to make this a photoblog ( which is definitely easier to maintain ) only prob being that the scenery in singapore will be the same boring old stuff. Bleah. Well, have a good year ahead all and my new year resolution is to open up the artsy-fartsy part of me that has lain dormant for so long! Bring on the arts man! woo hoo

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The rest of the ppl i travelled with, sherm winston sasi and ah boon

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Mother Teresa's resting place in Kolkata

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Pondering a truly important question...whether to brush my teeth or not this morning

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Me a yak and an ass

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I love yaks!!!

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Poser pic at the lake

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Tsomgo lake again.Sacred one at that

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Tsomgo lake

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At Zhongri-La 4100m above sea level

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Sliding across a frozen river on my ass

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at 4000m with ah boon

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On the trek.Still cold

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Taking an afternoon nap at 3500m,10'C

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Scenery was amazing.You never know how truly amazing nature can be til you experience it up close

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Can u see the snow?

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Sokha,2900m

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What i looked like when i wasnt taking photos

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On top of Tiger Hill, Darjeeling, India to watch the sunrise. Was a beautiful morning, if only it wasnt so damn cold

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what jia bin thinks about our vegetarian diet on the trek

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Pic taken at my cousin's wedding. My sis is the one on my left in the purple skirt and the funky hair.haha look closely and ask me if you dont get it

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Another one of those random photos i take inside the operating theatre

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My current clinical group. Wonderful guys all of them

Update again

2005-12-14T08:13:00.000-08:00

things are rather hectic now and i realise that i have been busy for the past 3 years almost without a break. sigh, how do i know this? my hairdresser today told me that i am starting to lose hair and that its a genetic thing. I strongly disagree with that statement cuz if it really was genetic, it wont come on so fast and so young and my dad has a lot of hair anyway.

But that set me thinking and i think that i have been taking on too many things recently and spreading myself out too thin. I guess i was trying to get over ee lyn and trying to keep my mind busy but now that i am over her, its all beginning to weigh me down a lot. I am kinda drained right now and all i want to end all my commitments properly, meaning that making sure that i am not needed anymore and not do any free work anymore. Jaded huh? but the truth is that i think that right now i want to enjoy life and be a little bit selfish. I will still help the old lady across the road and give up my seat in the train to a pregnant lady but i just wont take on any big projects anymore. Nope.

I am heading off to india this week and i am getting pretty hyped up for it. To be honest, its not so much of me wanting to visit the place but more for me to meditate and restore my inner balance. Very zen but all i want to do is to give myself a rest. I am weary with dealing with the world as we know it and i crave the solitude that hiking in the wilderness offers.

Well, its been a long time since i posted and its gonna be another long time before i post again but i wanna wish all my friends all the best in whatever they are doing and i hope they have time to take a break and smell the roses. Spring is coming and winter fades away.

Back!

2005-11-22T08:22:00.000-08:00

Had a really long hiatus from blogging recently cuz i been real busy. Big things have been happening and my life has really changed in the last few months. Well, a current update. Right now i am doing my orthopaedic surgery posting in SGH. Damn its huge and its so easy to get lost in the human crowd that throng the place. But to be honest, i like it quite a bit esp since you get a lot more independence from tutorials to go do your own learning which is what i like.haha

Well, medicine posting ended at CGH and i had a week long holiday which i spent in msia just bumming around..which to be honest was FANTASTIC! shopped like mad.Well, of course i have to dont be silly cuz i shop only once a year.haha yeah thats why my wardrobe sorta stagnates every year then bursts out in full colour and variety whenever i have a holiday. Typical me.

Ortho has been rather interesting and it helped me really revise my anatomy. Sad to say, i havent been giving it my full effort due to some external commitments like Soma and some other social issues. haha but now that i am in SGH, i intend to give it my best shot. Think that i am beginning to like the surgery line more and more.

Hmm, new things in my life. Well, too many to list but notable ones include my newfound interest in losing weight and getting back my fitness....again.haha as you can tell, it aint been my first time trying to get it back. Met up with the mugging gang too and i sorta miss them and the fun times we spent together in the library and doing stupid stuff.haha like throwing tissue into my car dammit.Stupid wes.

hmm other than that, i am looking for somewhere to go during my short 2 week holidays. Been invited to go along with winston and pals to new zealand but the price a bit put offish. May rethink and go somewhere else, maybe Everest Base Camp? but thats not suppose to be a nice trek so arh...will think more. Well, a shout out to my dear pals who i havent heard from for long, daffy, zhen, jolin, leonard, seng, ronne, mich yong and jo. Ling sorry i just saw u so not counted.hha
take care all

post test

2005-10-11T10:56:00.000-07:00

So the test wasnt as bad as i expected. I ended up getting a few pretty decent cases which were attemptable. But yet again, i am struck by the simple way i dismissed my examination cases as simply that, cases. I feel a bit bad for the poor filipino lady who had the TB and who looked so worried about it but still agreed to be examined by me for my test. Then, there was the nice old lady who had a transient ischemic attack who probably is a bit concerned that she might get a bigger stroke next time. But still she willingly answered all my questions, every single one of them, including the dumb ones. My heart really goes out to her. Well, thats after the exam, sad to say, during the exam i was a bit more concerned with getting the diagnosis rather than concerning myself with how the patients felt. I did say goodbye and told them not to worry too much but i still feel that i didnt do enough. Well, thats probably one reason why one day i will leave the public sector. Its too fast paced for me to actually connect with my patients and that i think, is a big problem.

I had dinner with YZ after my test. We went to this rather nice place in North Bridge Road, staffed by people who are training to be professional waiters.haha was rather cute the way this guy who speaks rather bad english came up to us to ask us if we wanted any wine to go with our main course. Of course, he made a recommendation but i didnt really understand what he was saying. But fear not, we sent him away with a warm smile while shaking our heads.haha dinner was good but sad to say, i didnt take any photos cuz i didnt bring my camera that day. Well, i was more concerned with the company so i guess food pics took a backseat.

The next few days will be busy ones as i prepare for my MCQ test on friday. Just had a look at the past year papers and they look very hard. Bugger. Well gotta go do what i do best...mug

Serenity

2005-10-09T00:37:00.000-07:00

Yeesh, tom got test so today got stress. But the good news this time is that i feel better about it all, like more calm with myself and ready for any shit that is shoved my way. Hmm, neeways i gotta go start on my work. All the best to the other med ppl going for the test too

End of posting test is coming finally!

2005-10-07T21:15:00.000-07:00

Yeah, the title says it all. My end of posting test is here! woohoo! Its been 16 long weeks since i began my real on the job training and the extremely steep learning curve is really getting to me. Imagine relearning all the topics covered in 2 busy years within 16 weeks, and not only that, you got to learn how to apply the knowledge as well in a real life setting. Not as easy as it seems esp when i realised that i dont just need to know my stuff, but i need to have it at the tip of my fingers in order to diagnose the patient quickly enough and without any additional delay that might add more pain to their suffering. However, intense workload aside, its a challenge i readily embrace. In the course of this 16 weeks, i have learnt a whole lot more about medicine than i have ever learnt in the past 2 years as a pre-clinical medical student. And at the end of it all, it really feels satisfying to have all that knowledge at your fingertips and being able to answer at least half of the tough questions thrown your way by tutors. haha half only lar... wait til i am a final year student then probably i will be able to answer most of the questions.

On other fronts, i just got the NUS Alumnus magazine.haha cheap thrill, the title in front of my name says Dr.haha wheee. But the funny thing is that i heard somewhere that most fully qualified doctors fresh out of medical school try to hide the fact that they are a doctor cuz they are so tired of the heavy workload thrown at them.haha so may be a good idea to enjoy more cheap thrills like this for the time being first before i am saddled with the burdens of a real doctor. Dont get me wrong, its still my passion in life but sometimes, with the amount of non-clinical work that i see doctors do like doing case summaries, reports and other mundane clerical work, i cant help but to feel their pain.

Anyways i gotta run. YZ is coming over to my place to accompany me while i study so i gotta go make sure it looks clean even though her room looks worse than mine.haha oops.

Hiatus

2005-10-02T06:37:00.000-07:00

Its been a long time since i last blogged. So many things have been happening that finding time to blog has been near impossible. But now that i am here, i shall make an attempt to sum up whats been going on in my life so far.

Medicine posting. Its near the end of the posting, the last 2 weeks in fact and i am going to miss CGH. Not that i am especially close to any of the doctors there but i have really enjoyed the atmosphere there and i really do look forward to being posted there again. Its a great place really cept when u are so preoccupied with learning. Havent even had a chance to try the gym or the badminton courts yet. But my end of posting test is coming soon and its time to focus my mind on studying.

Soma. Things have been moving finally. Just met the juniors as they were baking cookies to raise funds. I must say that they are an enthusiastic bunch. Brought some of them to wala wala a few weeks back to enjoy the live music there and it was really fun having them around.haha despite the fact that we barely knew each other. Oh well, they are going to be my house officers next time so i better get to know them better. Will be attempting to teach some upper limb to them tomorrow after the meeting at their request and i do hope that i will do a decent job.

Relationships. I think that my days as a single and unavailable guy is coming to an end. I met someone last week who i think might change my mind about staying single. Watch this space to see if anything does develop. Wish me all the best people.

Birthdays! Yes, it was Hui Shan's bdae recently and she had a lovely party in this bungalow in Aloha Changi. Freaking far away from civilisation but the food and ambience was great. Too bad i didnt take any photos there cuz i was too tired from a long day in the hospital. But it was fun seeing her boyfriend too esp since i have travelled with him before.haha hui shan was damn shocked to know that i was friends with her bf.

My other pals. Hey Nut and Jolin, where are you guys. How are things going? So sorry that uncle has been busy recently. I will call you soon after my test is over. Take care yeah,you two.

Well, that was a real short and brief look at my life the past few days. I need to keep my face to my books so i will go now. Have a good life people

Whats up with my blog

2005-10-02T06:34:00.000-07:00

Something is really wrong with blogspot nowadays.

Darts and holiday destinations

2005-09-18T03:53:00.000-07:00

Looking for a good holiday destination for my dec holidays and i realise that the world is really damn bloody big with a lot of places that i have to visit. But a new twist is that now i am using google earth to eyeball the different destinations up close. Oh well, the wonders of technology. Speaking of google earth, you do realise that the program allows u to zoom in on some countries more than others. Hmm, does anyone see the eeriness in that... i wonder how long they have been spying on me esp since i can zoom up damn close to my house.haha

On the subject of holidays, does anyone have any good ideas? i am looking for a place with good scenery, good food and good weather. Nepal actually fits the bill pretty well but i am not too keen on going back to the same place again. Well , at least not for now. Ideas ideas, i need them.

Of bad days and badder moods

2005-09-14T08:14:00.000-07:00

Yes slam me for my english. What can i say, i am tired.

I am tired of the way we learn our shit. I hate it when the damn schedule only allows us 8 weeks to learn a discipline that people take years to master. I am tired of wearing the stupid white coat that sweats you to death ( i know all about the 'professional look' but who the hell would want to be examined by a pimpled face youngster with a soaking wet shirt and beads of sweat dripping from the rim of their glasses ).

I hate being treated like a youngster and not as a professional colleague. So what if i am still a goddamned student, like it or not, we are gonna be your colleagues in the future and who the hell are you to talk down to me that way. Why cant you knock some sense into your head and realise that without us, what hospital will u be running? Grrr... had a run in with some admin people about some stupid thing that wasnt our mistake in the first place. In the end, i know the adage about respecting your elders and all that but the reason why that saying came about was cuz elders in general EARN your respect. You dont blindly give your respect to every elderly person you come across. And why is it that i get the damn general notion that we are viewed as parasites on every hospital we go to. Cant they understand the concept of on the job training?! We are dealing with human lives here and i wouldnt want to put my life into the hands of some academician who knows every cell in the body but knows next to shit on how to draw my blood. Why look down on us? What happened to the camaraderie i heard about?

Actually, ego aside, doctors are the centre of the medical institution. We form the core of the medical discipline and it is the role of the other people like the nurses and admin staff to support us in what we do, not get in our way and certainly not to interfere in our training. Naturally, the basic principle is that the said doctors and medical students need to be trusted to be correctly motivated and well intentioned. Gah, i am so disgusted. I guess if i do leave the public service, it will be this that drives me away. anyways, i need to go do my write up, catch me another time when i am in a better mood

Spider up, wallet down

2005-09-13T09:26:00.000-07:00

Yay its ok. Saw a spider-doctor today and he fixed my spider for me. But at the cost of all my meals for the coming one month. Sigh, chicken rice everyday it shall be til my wallet recovers. To donate to the Yew Sen Lunch Money Fund, please drop me a message starting with ' I am treating you to lunch/dinner/supper* on (date and time)' * cancel where appropriate ... or better yet, dont cancel.

Spider down

2005-09-12T09:14:00.000-07:00

Of music and men

2005-09-11T08:56:00.000-07:00

Went to wala's for the first time on sat night and despite the exhorbitant price i paid for my beer, i think its an experience i want to relive. The band was decent but to be honest their chill out kind of music didnt appeal to me. But the best part was learning that beer tastes the best when it is in the draft form and not from a bottle. Yep, enjoyed beer for the first time last night. Hoegarden it was and it was good. It was fun meeting kristoff too, that german 5th year med student who was with sheldon. haha esp watching him trying to pick up an aussie girl and rolling his own cigarrettes. haha and i wasnt all that successful either when i tried chatting up some girls who were there to promote some beer.haha for fun only lar, i was bored by the music. They did say they would come back and join us for a drink later when they ended work but they never turned up. Oh well.

Been trying to read up neuro the whole day and to be honest, the only thing i learnt is that studying on my hammock is not a good idea. Well, i guess its a necessary evil. haha k have a good week ahead y'all

2005-09-11T02:39:00.001-07:00

and here's zarena pondering strongly .... whats for dinner. true story!

2005-09-11T02:39:00.000-07:00

Found this pic. Its my dinner in nepal!haha

2005-09-11T02:37:00.000-07:00

Birthday girl! happy bdae man and thanks for the friendship and the roasted chicken wings

2005-09-11T02:36:00.001-07:00

Jie Er! my old team mate. the pic looks weird right? well, one of us was standing up and the other was squattingdown.haha wont say who was doing what

2005-09-11T02:36:00.000-07:00

Me ronne jo and victor.

2005-09-11T02:35:00.001-07:00

Ronne-boy and me. He's the reason why i know hui xian

2005-09-11T02:35:00.000-07:00

Hui Xian's Bday. As usual, i am always the odd one out. Here is a pic with me and her class.haha her exact words were... ' my class and Yew Sen come and take pic with me !! '

A fresh start is always good

2005-09-05T07:16:00.000-07:00

I must say that i am extremely impressed with the newest crop of Soma members thus far. I attended one of the meetings today and to be honest, it was better than i expected. The enthusiasm level was really high and the buzz was noticeable. Even Hui Li and Yun Xin who tend to be more grounded were impressed.haha too bad i cant make it for the trip this year. Would really love to go back with this year's batch. Well, its Kx and El's luck to lead such a wonderful team. all the best guys

Bored

2005-09-04T05:05:00.000-07:00

Gawd i am so bored. So speaks the mind of an un-interesting person. And it will take a lot of work to make me interesting. Bah, it sucks to know u have a problem but you are too lazy to do anything about it. To be honest, i am not too lazy but i just feel that i havent found something else to occupy myself other than work and soma and my exercise which btw i have been neglecting for a while. Shit.

Maybe venturing back into taekwondo might be a good idea. Point against that would be that my left leg is still messed up. sigh, but that was a fun avenue to meet people and to get fit. But a bit boring considering i have been in it for years ( since primary 6 ). Tried capoeira and was almost going to join in until my left hamstring reared up its ugly head again and rewarded me with a stabbing pain down my thigh when i attempted a backhook. Shit.

Bah, i hate having a chronic injury. What the freak was i thinking back in my younger days. Why the hell did i do all that shit that got me this injury in the first place. Bah

Pizza nights are here again

2005-09-04T01:08:00.000-07:00

Had pizza night again when zhen came over recently. Watched the two most idiotic shows on earth.dammit.haha anyway was a pretty cool time, including discussing the nuances and hidden messages in the show 3 kings. What can i say, she is taking a pretty cool course in films in NUS. Why dont i take those kind of courses too?

CGH was ok the past one week. I realize that the learning curve in med is really really steep. From day one already i felt that i was behind by a lot. I really cannot envision how i will learn everything there is to know in medicine in 8 weeks. Madness. Well, just got to plod on i suppose. Need to rediscover the fighting spirit i had back in my jc days.

Speaking of fighting spirit, Yet Yen organised another match for us on sat. Was great seeing them again including julian the ac boy.haha anyways, i realised that i have lost the fighting spirit that burned in me during my competitive days in the NJ team. I suppose then i had no choice but to fight cuz the whole team's expectations were on me to perform. I remember all the times when i felt like dying and every breath felt like fire but having to push on and keep the shuttle in the air and over the net. But now, when playing with the guys, i only perform when i am fresh. But the minute i start losing my wind, my game goes out of the window. I guess its a reflection of my life nowadays. I am becoming soft, too soft for my own good. Dammit, thats it. I have to stop that shit. I hate softies.

Well, week 2 is down. Week 3 is looming ahead and i need all the time i have to keep my head above the water. Have a good week,y'all.

2005-08-31T10:37:00.000-07:00

Spent the afternoon playing this game. Weird objective but ultimately fun what with the company we had clustered around the board. I will remember the day papa smurf sneakily kept hiding money and insisting on his poverty all the time

2005-08-31T10:36:00.000-07:00

Serene, MZ and Rita at breakfast. All looking damn tired

2005-08-31T10:35:00.000-07:00

One of the best female foodies i know.Serene!

2005-08-31T10:33:00.000-07:00

Old foggies gathering once again...as usual with a lot of food and alcohol.Note the chronic alcoholic with the depressed look on the left with his head on his hands pondering when we will crack open the baileys

Bummer

2005-08-29T09:51:00.000-07:00

The weekend was pretty fun. We had a stay over at Wei Jing's place and it was great meeting up with my old travel buddies again. But somehow, when monday came, i just couldnt settle down and start my work. I am not drained, but in a way, i feel tired, but what of i do not know. I never meant to appear complex but that last sentence does encompass my feelings at the moment exactly.

I think that i have been having a run of bad luck recently and i am waiting for the tide to turn. Its not just mere pessimism but i cant help worrying when its a family member that gets affected and not me. I am willing to bear the brunt of the bad luck for my family but it sucks when its someone else and i can only watch helplessly.

A recent epiphany i had was that i am morphing more and more into the pantywaist persona with no fighting spirit that i really abhor. Seems to me that i seem to want more and more spoonfeeding which i know intellectually is the best way to kill an active mind.Sigh, am i getting jaded with medicine? i am not sure but i do know that i still love what i am doing in the hospitals, its just the steep learning curve that is putting me down. Damn, i need to rediscover my old fighting spirit

...

2005-08-24T08:59:00.000-07:00

Realise that as time passes , i seem to blog less and less. My dad just got discharged from NUH and i must say that despite what the angiogram found, he is ok. To cut a long story short, the angiogram found something which they cant fix but the good news is that my dad doesnt seem to be affected by it. Well, lets hope that it never will affect him.

Recent events have shown me time and time again the perks of being a medical student in NUS. From getting in-depth explanations from doctors to better treatment from nurses for my dad as well as free medical treatment, i realize that the sense of camaraderie is stronger than i thought it was. And i must say that i am glad for it. It is something i look forward to esp in the profession i am in where we need to take care of each other. Well, i appreciate what has been done for me so far and i will remember.

Havent had much of a chance to explore changi properly yet cuz i been missing classes cuz i wanted to be near my dad in NUH. But so far, things look good. I like the atmosphere and the airyness of the place. For a weird reason, the wards in CGH are really roomy and i like that. Its a a change from the bustling cramp corridors of NUH where nurses, doctors, catering staff and porters all try to squeeze pass each other in the corridor at the same time. Throw in the poor medical student trying to read a case file and you get chaos. haha well, what can i say, they got more space. However, the downside of CGH is that the food is horrible. Atrocious. Abhorable and utterly detestable. I cant believe HOs get such bad food.sigh... i miss NUH food.haha

In other fronts, i still miss the friends i made in NUH haha esp Dr Tay who so kindly let me pull out chest tubes. ey how to post msgs on ur blog? so hard. wah lau. haha neeways, hope all of them are doing fine. yep , take care all

Moving on

2005-08-21T06:36:00.000-07:00

My surgery posting is over. Surprising how fast 8 weeks pass by when you dont notice it. I guess it was the fun that we had there that hastened the time, a cruel joke that god plays on us. I will especially miss the docs there who collectively made up my NUH experience. From Charles Tan to Angie and Michelle,Jimmy So and Jia Sheng and of course Dr Raj Kumar Menon, all made my experience all the more memorable and heart warming. Thanks a bunch guys and i wish you all the best in the future. I really learnt a lot from you all and thoroughly enjoyed the experience.

I will be heading to Changi GH tom and for the next 8 weeks and i am brimming with the excitement of making new friends and learning new things. I hope that i will enjoy this one too. Well, here's a cheers to that!

I should blog more often

2005-08-13T11:01:00.000-07:00

I should blog more often but of late i realise that i only blog when i am agitated over something or depressed. Well, i am none of that today but here's an update of whats been going on.

1. Soma is up! So far so good but there are a lot of things to be explained to a lot of people which is not so good.

2. I cleaned my house! Yes big news since someone complained that my house was dirty, u nut. haha well, it was a rather impromptu thing. I was just feeling bored so decided to splash some water ard the house and then wipe it up hoping that all the dust magically sticks to the water on the mop...fat chance i know but i shall keep living my fantasy. Surprising thing is that my mom has been bugging me to get one of those daily cleaners but i absolutely refuse cuz i hate having strangers in my house. Rather clean the place myself...or rather, i prefer living in filth.haha

3. I managed to establish contact with Jolin! haha seeing how rare it is for me to be able to get her on the phone, i think its a notable achievement. Beginning to really miss this person so for God's sakes if u read this, set aside a day for us to meet u can.haha

4. Surgery end of posting test. Whee its over, wasnt as bad as i thought it would be. My patient had intestinal obstruction and that was a pretty easy topic to discuss about so i think i did pretty ok.

5. Bored bored bored. I need to find something to do. Its a pretty interesting thing but i have exhausted the list of things that i wanted to learn..haha pretty short list huh ... but anyways i running out of ideas. Sports are almost out seeing how hard it is to get ppl down to play badminton, floorball, hockey or squash. Was thinking of some dancing but got to wait for someone to finish her piano.haha sorry but i prefer company when i venture into this kinda things

6. Cooked! Yes, i stepped into the kitchen! after a long abscence. Made some more of my infamous pasta with rosemary chicken. Then today i tried mixing in some worchestire sauce and it was fantastic. Goes very well with chicken.

7. Petrol..pumped again today. Groan, will have to stop accelerating so hard. The bloody stinking americans. How dare they close down two huge refineries and cause a worldwide shortage of oil. That and also for targetting iran, only the second biggest oil producer in OPEC. Drat it, if the prices go higher, i will have to go back to cycling ard.

8. Mandarin. Still as bad as ever. I feel a real pressing need to start learning for real but i keep dragging my feet. drat it

Well, that basically sums up my life from the last post til now. Well ,that plus a few other stuff. My life is not that boring. haha well take care all

Thanks ling

2005-08-07T07:56:00.000-07:00

Ling messaged me today cuz she read my prev post and felt a bit concerned for me. Thanks a lot for that yea. Its friends like you that give my life colour and substance. I really appreciated that gesture, really.

Looking back, i realise that my last few entries are rather morbid. But to be honest, life really isnt as bad as that. Its just that when things are not going so well that i have a lot of things to get off my chest and thats when i blog.In fact, that was the primary reason why i began blogging and i suppose that it does help. Right now, i am doing my write up on a patient for my Surgery posting and i must admit that i think that its a pretty bad job so i will be starting from scratch again.Dang. Well, i got to go but i came online mostly cuz i really felt touched by ling. Thanks again man.

Bimanic disorder

2005-08-06T09:34:00.000-07:00

I dont know whats wrong with me nowadays. I seem to swing from one mood to another . First, i become extremely optimistic abt the future then i become really withdrawn and start to doubt myself. Bah, i feel like writing a prescription for diazepam for myself. At least i will be euphoric most of the time.haha

I realise that my life has become rather dull. I havent been out for fun in ages, my sporting activities have trundled down to near zero and i find myself lying around too much on my hammock. Dammit. Was thinking of joining some club in NUS but then i dunno man, i dont know what clubs there are which are fun to join. Well well, think i too picky. Ahh crap. Just keep rambling on. Ok, think i will log off now and go to the NUS page to start looking at clubs. Later

Gawdawful experience

2005-08-04T10:06:00.000-07:00

Gah, the feelings of inadequacy are once again here to haunt me. Was thinking back to the night call i had a day ago and i relived an incident that i think will haunt me for a while. I was asked to get a clinical history from a patient that just came in from Emergency. Off i went with my usual confident stride with stetoscope in hand. Then i come to the bedside where i see this pleasant looking lady who was sleeping. She was wearing an operating theatre gown so i thought she just came up from OT and i wrongly assumed that she was just sleeping off her anaesthesia. That made me pause cuz i thought that it wasnt urgent for me to get the history cuz i assumed she was just in for an elective procedure and it wasnt urgent anyways.

Nevertheless, i decided to wake her up cuz the docs told me specifically to talk to her. Loathe as i may be to wake up an ill person, i decided that it was important enough. When she wakes up, the true clinical picture emerges. She is lolling her head a bit from side to side, obviously sedated but the first words out of her mouth is ' pain' and she holds her abdomen. Which sets off a lot of alarm bells in my head that hey, this aint no elective operation, this lady really came in from Emergency and she hasnt been treated yet. So, true to my training til then, i start off by asking the normal questions.. where is the pain, when did it start etc. Then, it hits me that for the first time in my life, i am not talking to a patient who is well and at rest in bed. Here i am talking to lady that is still obviously sick and is not that responsive. Sad to say, it wasnt my most glorious moment. My mind blanked out and i start asking a whole plethora of questions without any direction. And so there i was, not having any idea whatsoever what the patient has but asking her every damn question in the textbook and prolonging her suffering even longer.

Luckily for the patient, another doc had slipped in quietly and was observing my disgraceful performance. He then took over and with just a few questions clinched the diagnosis - adhesion colic...one of the most common things that we see everyday in the wards. Well, that entire episode lasted less than 15 mins but true to the fickle mindedness of the human mind, i forgot it all as the night then went on with more pleasurable incidents like the trip to fong seng and the supper affair.

Well, i said in my last post that i will be the judge to me and the judge says that it was bad. Really bad. Sigh

back home

2005-08-03T10:43:00.000-07:00

Just came back from night duty.haha today i saw a different type of night duty, one that not only involves multiple pages but also a trip to fong seng for prata, a massive gathering at the HO room for supper, the talks of how doctors marry doctors and a whole lot of laughter and camaraderie - basically a night of good fun and hard work. I love being in medicine.

Reflections

2005-07-30T10:03:00.000-07:00

Right now, i feel a calm of sorts envelope my entire being. It seems to me my soul is at peace for once, not bothered by the little irrevelancies that plague my daily existence, a situation i know is familiar to all but the most enlightened of us. I feel liberated somehow and it is a good feeling.

Of late, i have been reflecting a little on the state of affairs of my life. And i am beginning to think that i am getting a little spoiled and pampered. I am giving up on things too easily and i keep expecting things to work out the way i planned. Wrong of me i know but its one of those things that you unconsciously do without thinking. Maybe what Raj said was right, that i am getting overconfident and too cocksure of myself. Thats never good. I think i need to rethink how i live my life again and go back to being the calm, steady person i used to be. No more feelings of helplessness, indecision and certainly none of the pessimistic attitude i have begun to adopt of late.

Well, reading all that, it seems like i can talk the talk but can i walk the walk. Only time will tell and myself being the judge.

Rainy days and smelly socks

2005-07-25T09:33:00.000-07:00

Ever noticed how rainy days are always associated with smelly socks? You know, you are tramping home, walking on wet dirt and when u finally get home and pull of your shoes, you realize that your socks are damp. By then, its usually too late and a nice fresh aroma assails your nostrils and brings you to new state of temporary nirvana. Pain doesnt end there though. Disgusted, you pull of your socks and lo and behold, your feet, stinking to high heaven are finally unencumbered by the confines of your socks. Which obviously, sends you off again to a state of higher awareness and transforms your mind and body into a single, focused entity - to wash your feet. haha well, so that was something i learnt today.

Got a match tom with my other 3 buddies in med. Really miss playing with them and i hope that my recently rediscovered youthful stamina will give yet yen a good fight for his money during our singles match. Sad really that i used to play singles but moved to doubles cuz my stamina slackened off. haha will try and take some photos tom with the guys for our memories.

gnite all

2005-07-25T09:01:00.000-07:00

Me and the mysterious medical student who was caught sleeping on camera during a lecture

2005-07-25T08:58:00.000-07:00

Medical student sighting during a lecture at the back of the class

2005-07-24T00:32:00.000-07:00

Bdae boy washing his face after Joanne delivered the coup de grace with his own bdae cake

2005-07-24T00:31:00.000-07:00

Birthday boy with his pretty girlfriend.haha so sweet the way he smooched her in front of all of us

2005-07-24T00:30:00.001-07:00

Me and Chun Yi with our 2 mad friends Hui Xian and Joanne

2005-07-24T00:30:00.000-07:00

Guys from our fantastic OG ( Alofif 5/01s26 NJC '02).

2005-07-24T00:29:00.000-07:00

Michelle, Ronne and me at Ronne's 21st!Finally, you are a man!haha

Birthday's galore!!!

2005-07-24T00:24:00.000-07:00

Saturday was Ronne's birthday. One hell of a pal from my JC days. haha the party was great, the company fantastic but sad to say the poor boy ended up too drunk in the end to say a proper goodbye to us.haha sad thing about having a lot of guys around during your birthday is the inevitable appearance of a bottle of alcohol usually 40% proof and the chants to down in all.haha lets see, he had half a bottle of red wine ( drunk from the bottle and a shot of pure 40% vodka ). and not to mention all the usual cake slamming and water splashing.haha

Well pal, its been a blast since we met and here's to our friendship for years and years ahead! have fun in ntu bro!

Zing zang whiddle doo

2005-07-21T07:52:00.000-07:00

Sorry i cant think of a decent title for this post so there you have it. haha

Today was a pretty decent day. The day passed by slowly, some of the patients i have been keeping up with were discharged and i had a decent workout in the gym. Got a few sms-es from some old pals which really made my day and now all i have to do to make this day really perfect is to stop blogging and go shower cuz i really beginning to get light headed from the smell of dried sweat on my shirt.eeew

take care all and thanks for being good pals!

2005-07-18T11:16:00.000-07:00

And last but certainly not the least are the two ding dongs who were my travel buddies to australia. Really miss those days too esp when a certain person *cough 'jayne'* was made to eat her food over a dustbin cuz of her inexplicable ability to leave ant food everywhere she ate

2005-07-18T11:13:00.000-07:00

And how can i forget this wonderful trip. Climbed Mt Ophir with some fantastically wonderful pals from NJ. Uhh, fyi i didnt spank him. Just a pose

2005-07-18T11:12:00.000-07:00

Another pic of us in Myanmar. Damn i miss those days

2005-07-18T11:11:00.000-07:00

And of course there is the fantastic bunch of people who travelled Myanmar with me. Miss those days too when we were wandering around the whole country leaving little trails of fecal material everywhere we went.haha right wei jing?

2005-07-18T11:09:00.000-07:00

Of course, when Pea pops up, so does this other one.haha my 'sister'. Auntie ah, when will u stop working and meet us so that we can celebrate your birthday properly. Havent seen you for ages and me and ling really miss you.haha

2005-07-18T11:07:00.000-07:00

Me and Pea at our birthday. This girl is one of my best pals. Sweet, pretty and has a really pleasant disposition.haha ling, you better read this and feel happy cuz i aint saying it no more.haha just thank ur lucky stars i am feeling mellow and fuzzy now